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| Sunday, January 28, 2007 |
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From far away for far too long says:
i think u're a very lucky person
From far away for far too long says:
dont u think?
From far away for far too long says:
- claire` says:
yea i am
- claire` says:
ive got alot of very good friends arnd me
- claire` says:
and im really thankful for that(:
there was this warm fuzzly feeling when i heard that.
and i really meant what i said.
cos my friends keep me alive(: |
and so she said at 11:31 PM  |
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| Saturday, January 27, 2007 |
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today we've probably reached a new low.
with all the tears, arguments and discussions involved.
and i'd say that the emotions that came into play were so much so overwhelming, even i was stunned at how much my voice trembled when i spoke and the tears that came flowing thereafter.
all i wanted to do was to argue for the fairness and rationale of it all.
i was speaking for the issue. and not for anyone.
there's a difference.
it's upsetting how things've got to turn out so ugly.
how misjudgements, groundless assumptions and the word of mouth warps images even before you really actly know the person.
now we're debating about simple errors made complicated.
errors that we're all guilty of committing and will still commit.
i really hate it when all the reasoning becomes so technical- like how we spent so long defining and arguing over the significance and boundaries of a stupid mc.
i mean, yea i know, in the positions and roles we're given, it sounds illogical and completely naive, but cant we use our hearts to think? to reason? to decide?
rahh.
okay i know the majority prob wont understand what im talking abt cos im trying as hard as i am not to be too explicit.
anw, stay strong everyone(:
on a wholly seperate issue,
although im feeling totally crappy now cos of a whole load of problems that mircaculously, unfortunately, sickeningly, have to surface at this time, i feel less clouded- by delusions, stories and whatsoever.
im amazed at how ive been stronger than i imagined myself to be.
and haha. i know this is so random, but someone needs to remind me that i just recovered from a fever on wed because im frantically turning to ice cream and chocolates for my severly major endorphins deficiency. teehee.
okay and just to prevent anyone from thinking im depressed or sth, which i am really NOT quite.
lets end the post with a smiley face.
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| and so she said at 10:55 PM |
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| Tuesday, January 16, 2007 |
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at this pt of time, i know i should just shut up and keep my peace.
cos i know that anything that comes out now, i might just regret soon later.
but its all bottling up.yet i dont feel like calling anyone.
for now, i just wanna keep all this to myself.
nothing has hurt thus much than today.
that attitude shown. the words spoken.
when that came out,i swear it hurt more than anything else.
it seems as though i dont know the person anymore.
im still trying to decipher if all that was a facade or was it there all along.
i can't put into words exactly how horribly frustrated and disappointed im feeling at everything, everyone now.
you all think you know me and you all think you know what im feeling.
but hell, no.
have any of you really, really asked me?
have any of you tried asking what i really want?
i need all of you to stop making decisions for me.
cos i know what i want. what i really want to make me happy.
but now. i guess i dont even have a choice to follow my decision.
especially when after all these while, aft so long,
all i needed to say was one word.
this is the biggest joke ever. |
| and so she said at 10:36 PM |
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| Monday, January 8, 2007 |
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the whole rivalry thing's just revealing everyone's ugly side.
and its spoiling all the relationships built.
noone's really smiling anymore.
everyone's just pissed at everyone.
seriously, this really really sucks.
since when did we become such scheming politicians. |
| and so she said at 9:54 PM |
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| Sunday, January 7, 2007 |
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some vainpok complains my blog is stagnant.
so here am i to satisfy that horrible person. haha(:
basically slept my whole day away cos 01 practically drained away all my energy.
im freaking tired. physically and mentally.
everyday i reach home like a dead fish and the next morning in school, i STILL feel like a dead fish.
and have i mentioned before that the council room is almost like a graveyard in the morning?
cos its deadly silent and even when the briefing's on, you can't figure out if someone's eyes are open or close.
with 01, its a love hate relationship.
and the fact that the week ahead's gonna be an even more strenous one, with all that fac dance prac, amazing race and war games, just doesnt make me feel any better:(
right now.
i need coffee, energy bars, red bull, milo and anything else that'll help keep my eyes open and reduce my ever-increasing eyebags. |
| and so she said at 10:56 PM |
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| Tuesday, January 2, 2007 |
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hello 2007!(:
i daresay i had the most unique new yr than anyone of you here!
haha but im not gonna say why since it isn't sth very honourable or glamourous.
FAR from glamourous in fact.
but it was surely hilarious though.
i swear everyone nearly died laughing. teehee(:
I BRING JOY TO EVERYONE :D
finally unwrapped all the xmas and birthday presents yest:DD
and i ended up with 3 new wallets!
haha which is pretty ironic since just 2 weeks ago, i was still whining bout my flaky not-so-gold wallet.
but oh wells. im not complaining(:
school's starting tmr!
i can't believe it! two months of holidays just zoomed past like THAT.
-no more aft naps, no more crazy shopping, no more waking up late, no more slacking arnd!:((((((
RAHH.
and there's hardly any sense of excitement or happiness.
where's that anxiety and anticipation i felt on the very same day last yr?
i dont want to be a j2 laaaaaa.
i dont wanna see juniors coming in.
yes i know we were ALL juniors once.
but i just dont like juniors. somehow the very sight of them irks me.
booooo.
i miss j1:(((( |
| and so she said at 10:24 PM |
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